New beginnings can sometimes take us down familiar roads. At that point, it's a choice: 1) Do we go back or do we proceed forward? 2) Is the door opening for a past desire or is it going to stay closed?
Only time will tell. In the meantime, I follow the Lord always. If He wants me to turn back to finish something I started five years ago, He'll make that way.
And even if God does want me to finish something I started five years ago, He still has plenty of new things He's getting me involved in...although some of them I've been doing for quite a while. Now, it's a new level of activity.
I encourage you to seek the Lord if you are going through something right now. Here's what God showed me in Scripture last night.
Isaiah 57:15b/c and 18-19a - it was so appropo for my situation yesterday, I marvelled that the prophet Isaiah had written so very long ago! God is speaking here in this passage.
"...I live in the high and holy place with those whose spirits are contrite and humble. I restore the crushed spirit of the humble and revive the courage of those with repentant hearts...I have seen what they did, but I will heal them anyway! I will lead them. I will comfort those who mourn, bringing words of priase to their lips."
Most of the time, the Lord wants us to proceed forward. If you've read the total book of Isaiah, you know that there are numerous times that God says to forget the past. But there are a couple of places where He says to remember.
One passage in particular gave me great comfort about 8 years ago in the middle of a testing time. I came to a place where my understanding was crashing. People in authority were in authority saying one thing. Teachers were saying the opposite. My spirit was aligning with the teacher. How could they both be right? Severe brain crash led to a questioning in my heart and a gut-wrenching experience in my soul.
"God!" I cried out at 4:00 a.m. "Do you I hear from You at all? Have I not heard right from You all these years?" And I waited.
A very quiet, little thought came to mind. "Isaiah 46." I started reading. When I got to verse 9, I began to weep. "Remember the former things of old, For I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like Me." Yes. I'd heard. I got perspective the next day.